No Luck

My cycle of IVF didn't work. We're really disappointed and a little confused.  We had felt so optimistic. We meet with our doctor on Monday to figure out Plan B (which is probably plan A over again).  The good news is that we have 8 great looking embryos to work with in the future.  While I'm mourning the loss of this one, I know I will get another baby eventually.

6 months

Danny and I just got back from the oncologists.  He gets a scan and a check up every three months for a couple years and this month he is officially six months in remission. We had almost looked forward to out three month appointment -seeing all the nurses we had relationships with, being in a familiar place. This appointment was a completely different experience.  We walked into the building and I almost started hyperventilating-the whole experience just came back and felt very real. We both got anxious and felt sick just sitting in the waiting room.  It was horrible. There were just too many memories with too many emotions attached. The good news is Danny's scans looked great and we don't have to dread another appointment until next November:)
After the appointment we shook it off at a near by 7-11

unfortunately we feel sicker now:)

Hawaii!

I'm not sure how to document our trip to Hawaii. It was...bliss. We stayed in Kailua on the windy side of O'ahu in a stunning home right off the beach. We walked in the front gate and almost felt like there was a soundtrack going-palms rustling, exotic birds singing, ocean crashing in the background. It was awesome.  

Danny immediately threw himself in the water.  That boy was like a puppy dog-running in and out of the ocean, coming back to me for approval. We spent the majority of our time lounging on our perfect beach, reading books or walking along the beach. The water is bluer, warmer and cleaner than any ocean I've every seen. The sand is soft and white with no sea weed or bugs to be found. I LOVED it.

I'm not sure how we left the house, but we did manage to do some sight seeing. We went to the Polynesian Cultural Center and enjoyed the ice cream, show and exhibits. Danny was a volunteer at the Tonga drumming show. He was so good they needed to go faster and faster to lose him!

We also made our way to North Shore and Waikiki. It was not the best season for surfing, but Danny managed to go twice and enjoy the water without a thick wetsuit.  We went jet skiing, snorkeling, paddle boarding and hiking throughout the week as well.  We missed out Lucy every minute, but were glad she was having so much fun with her aunts and grandma and grandpa Anderson at home. In the end, she was the only thing that got me on the plane to come home.

This trip meant a lot to us. Throughout those months of chemo, we looked forward to being normal again and a time we could escape everything and just be together. We've never been on a trip just the two of us like this, and it was such a good time to reflect on this past year and look forward to the next. We still feel the negative effects of cancer every day (like when I'm shooting myself up with pregnancy hormones:), but hopefully very soon we'll be able to finally put it all behind us for good.